It’s been a while since I wrote something here. The tragedy that happened to our family had been taking it’s toll. At the end of the day, I was just exhausted so I’m trying to sleep more. At the same time, I didn’t want this website to be a pity party.
I’m going to list some of the things I’m thankful for even though I still feel the loss of my husband, especially this past Thanksgiving. This holiday season, there’s a tinge of sadness that I just can’t help feeling even if we’re celebrating Thanksgiving. I don’t even think the pain will ever end. Maybe it’ll fade in time but it’ll be like a scar that will always be a part of me.
Even though I prefer him alive, I’m still grateful for the life that I shared together with Steve.
I’m thankful for having this little munchkin of mine who lights up my life.
I’m thankful for having family and friends that will always be there for me when the going gets tough. I’m grateful for the people who send their birthday wishes and gifts to my little one, attended his birthday party to celebrate life and made it memorable for both of us.
I’m thankful for the concerned public who showed support when Steve was still missing.
I’m grateful that in spite of what had happened, I still have faith.
“Justice can sleep for years and awaken when it is least expected. A miracle is nothing more than dormant justice from another time arriving to compensate those it has cruelly abandoned. Whoever knows this is willing to suffer, for he knows that nothing is in vain.” ~ Mark Helprin, Winter’s Tale
“Let the first act of every morning be to make the following resolve for the day:
– I shall not fear anyone on Earth.
– I shall fear only God.
– I shall not bear ill will toward anyone.
– I shall not submit to injustice from anyone.
– I shall conquer untruth by truth. And in resisting untruth, I shall put up with all suffering.” ~ Mahatma Gandhi