Thea's Thoughts

41 Days

Our little munchkin created an handmade Father’s Day card for Steve last week. I was only able to get this card last Monday from his nursery school. Kyle picked up the card and told me, “Give to Daddy! Daddy still working.”

Sometimes you get discouraged
Because I am so small
And always leave my fingerprints
On furniture and walls

But everyday I am growing
I’ll be grown some day
And all those tiny handprints
Will surely fade away

So here’s a little handprint
Just so you can recall
Exactly how my fingers looked
When I was very small.

Father's Day Card
Father's Day Card
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40th Day

Has it really been 40 days? So many days had passed but this still feels surreal to me.  I’m so glad that my mom arrived last week to help me out at home. We were talking a couple of nights ago about how I felt  that this situation is getting too complicated for me. She in her wisdom, advised me not to complain.

I was bewildered: “Not complain? My husband is missing. I have no clue where he is. Of all people, why Steve? He’s the kindest man I ‘d ever known. He has done nothing wrong to anyone.”

My Mom
My Mom

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39th Day

Angels.

Before Steve disappeared, I’d already been part of a facebook group who are Pandora charm collectors. My in-laws actually got me into it. I love the fact that I can actually have a memento for a special memory, favorite objects, symbols & names of loved ones. It may seem trivial and materialistic to some people. But these are tokens of love.

Pandora Angel
Pandora Angel

The last gift I got from my hubby was a Pandora 10 year anniversary charm which symbolizes how long we’d known each other. It’s called a Destiny charm. It feels like that most of the time with my husband. It’s a love partnership that’s meant to be.

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38th Day

It’s specially hard today because for the first time, our little munchkin is not spending Father’s day with Steve. Uncle Alan & Uncle Jim are great in compensating for his absence but Kyle needs his Dad. He has never forgotten his Dad. Our little munchkin loves him.

The Tree
The Tree
Fire Warden's Grove
Fire Warden's Grove

Today, I went hiking again & checked out again the Wildwood Canyon Trail. Uncle Jim checked that trail already but I have to see it for myself. I went up to the Fire Warden’s Grove & Verdugo Motorway fire road to check out the 4 towers. I was looking for clues if he has been there. Some might think what I’m doing is foolish but I just don’t want to give up. I’m not giving up on my husband.

Signs
Signs
Thea's Shadow
Thea's Shadow
The Tower
The Tower

To those who has been there, giving me moral support from Day 1. Thank you. Your caring words & prayers are giving me strength to go on. Yesterday, I received a gift from the lovely ladies from my Pandora group. It’s an angel charm w/ halo. For me, it symbolizes hope, guidance & protection. Their act of kindness & generosity means so much to me.

Thank you.

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37th Day

There were 18 people who joined us to Let’s Bring Steve Home Community Search Party this morning. These are family, friends & other people who just cared enough to make time for us to find Steve. The Sierra Madre Search & Rescue teams had their own system & we didn’t want to interfere with what they’re doing. Uncle Jim told me that the SMSR had 15 people who are doing this as a training exercise. I’m just grateful for the time they contributed to the search efforts in finding Steve.

Thea Searching For Steve
Thea Searching For Steve

Let’s Bring Steve Home Community Search volunteers were divided into 8 groups. 5 groups went to the trails & 3 groups went to post fliers & asked bus drivers if they recognize Steve along the bus stops around the city of  Burbank, Glendale, San Fernando, Sunland, Montrose, Pasadena, etc.

Posting Fliers
Posting Fliers

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36th Day

Earlier today, our little munchkin & his classmates in the nursery were making their homemade Father’s Day card. According to his teacher, he had started crying & asking for Daddy. It just broke my heart when I heard this. All I could do is comfort him when I arrived home.

I’m more resolute than ever to find my husband. Our little munchkin needs him. I miss him in our life & it’ll never be the same again.

McCambridge Park
McCambridge Park

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34th Day

Press Statement:

My family & I will always be grateful for all the search efforts  that have been done by the FBI, the Burbank Police Department,  other law enforcement agencies, volunteers &  search & rescue teams. I’m eternally grateful for the support & prayers that we’re receiving from my family, friends & our community.

A One of A Kind Dad
A One of A Kind Dad

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33rd Day

Hope.

The reason why I decided to reach out to media outlets is to bring awareness that my husband Steve is still missing. I can’t let this case go cold. Media awareness could lead to tips & these information could lead to the Burbank Police Department & the FBI to follow up on these tips & search for him again. Nothing more than that. My main goal is to bring Steve back home safely.

It's All About Steve
It's All About Steve Coming Home

In spite of the glaring detail that his issued gun is missing from our home and he’s depressed, I still have hope that he’s alive. That’s what I’d been telling our child, “let’s hope & pray that Daddy will be back home soon.”

I really hope that the FBI would actively help us again in the search for Steve even if this is under the Burbank Police Department’s jurisdiction. They have the resources at hand to find Steve. No FBI agent should be missing in his own country.

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